My Parental Hypocrisy…

Kids are so cute. So funny. So adorable.

So creative! And adventurous.

They’re absolutely overflowing with energy, bursting at the seams with giggles and good ideas!

Especially mine… just making sure you all know how MUCH I adore my little one’s, before I move on…

While they are busy being all of these perfectly precious things, they are simultaneously, human beings…


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A Weak Week for Mama

This week…. Was rough.

(See facial expression: The Stink Eye!)

(How does she look so stinkin’ cute with such a stink on?!)IMG_3658edit

I told David on Tuesday, it’s so exhausting when he’s gone, having to be the only mature person in the house!

That was on Tuesday. I was exhausted of being mature on TUESDAY! Bad sign!

If you were to place me among most any group of adults, I would never be the most calm person there. Or the most forgiving. Or the most calm, most thoughtful, most calm, most loving, most patient, or most ANYTHING (calm!) person in the room.

But parenting has a way of demanding these things from me. And I can’t say that I did it perfectly, I probably didn’t even do it super well. But I did better. I tried to be better than I naturally am. And that’s what I’m choosing to focus on. [Read more...]

Marriage, GOD, and Magic Formulas.

Everywhere I go we talk about marriage lately. I’m reading at least 3 “wife” books right now. The pastor is preaching Ephesians. I’m married. My husband’s married. Most of my friend’s are married… See? It’s an epidemic! ;-) I’ve been itching to sit down and write about it all! But feeling a little intimidated because February will only be my 4th wedding anniversary.


My hope would be in writing this, any other young women who read this can be encouraged and simultaneously challenged. Almost none of this have I come up with through my own experiences, but rather what I feel God has shown me and spoken to me through people I respect. Whether you’re already married, or no where near it, there’s stuff to be considered here.

First, a few quotes from my quote book. (Followed by a recap of how I’m working on this…)

“What shocks me most is the dehumanization of love by young and wholly legal wives who chop and nail down and reduce that powerful force to a technique no different from driving a car… I am appalled by their consumer approach, their concern with management, their ineffectuality as women– sexless, competitive, anxiety -ridden. What has become of joy, and sorrow? Have women no instincts anymore, no mystery or mettle? Must everything be subjected to instruction and manuals, as though love were kind of cooking school?”

“Being in battle together is what keeps us from being at war with each other.”
(Francis Chan. You and Me Forever.)

“A woman who habitually complains against a man is quibbling. Either live with him, and hold your tongue, or act, but don’t harp, unless you really mean to keep from being loved.”

“A woman of GOD does not hope solely in her husband but, (Proverbs 31:25) ‘She is clothed with strength and dignity and laughs without fear of the future.’ For she knows of and hopes in her Lords promise to be with her.”
(personal writing…)

“Regardless of how satisfying your marriage is or isn’t, the real issue is how satisfied you are with God. Whether your marriage is full of joy or pain, God’s glory is at stake. Do you need to shift your focus on Him?… There are many, many Christians caught up in their own personal satisfaction, giving no thought to the way in which their lives show a deep satisfaction in God. Where is the willingness to forego a feeling of happiness in our marriage’s for the sake of God’s glory? No, we are clawing for our rights, and forgetting there is something far more immense and cosmic going on.”
(Lisa Chan. You and Me Forever.)
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New Budget & New Adventures

Recently we have made the switch to a cash budget. Our reasons need not be ALL disclosed, but suffice it to say God put it on our hearts to spend way less,  to give more easily, and remove ourselves from the addicting culture of needing more.

I actually love it!


And…. I hate it. Truly. It just depends on the day!

This obsession we have with buying constantly and excess…. It has to be a heart issue of discontent. Of greed. It’s an issue of pride.

To constantly feel like we want the new.

The next.

The “best”.

If we weren’t always comparing would we always be buying???

It feels good to be stepping back from that! Truly a relief! This is a heart condition that is encouraged by our society, and not a healthy one! Our Lord tells us to not even worry about what we will worry about tomorrow, for He can provide for His children. He reminds us many times how we should not store up our treasures on earth but in heaven, for, “Where our treasures are. There our heart will be.” I sure want my heart and my kids’ hearts and focus to be in heaven.

What’s all this earthly junk good for anyway? The only thing it accomplishes is giving me a focus OTHER than my heavenly goal!



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“As I Lay Me Down to Sleep…..” Christians are being murdered.

Every night for the past 2 weeks….
I tuck my 2 baby girls in.
I cry.
I pray.

I pray for those helpless mama’s in Iraq.
How out of control they must feel and how heart wrenching their position is.
I pray for their faith in the Lord. That they are able to stay strong in their task, that they might not waste their trials. I pray that they remember how their children are not theirs alone, but a gift from our heavenly Father, who loves them far more than we are even capable of. Praise God that these Christians are dying in their proclamation of faith in the one true God, and not for something meaningless, but I cannot imagine!!!

But then I feel like a hypocrite. Because I can only *hope* that my faith would have the same endurance that I pray they have now.

And then I go to my own bed, crying and praying.
And eventually, I get up to go pray over my own children some more.


And I think of those who have nothing but prayer.

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